Star, Star, Teach Me How to Shine, Shine

Light fixture I liked on recent trip to Budapest-key word, LIGHT

Just had to throw in a little Moldovan love. My host sister, Diana, in traditional dress at the Cricova Hram, or city day, in May. She danced the hora with her friends for all the town. It was awesome!

So. It's been a while. I have been asking myself almost daily at this point, "Why aren't I writing on my blog?" It's not that I don't think about writing. Perhaps it's more that my thoughts don't come together in any way that I see worth sharing. Usually, an entire blog post is written in my head while I do some mundane task like showering or making breakfast. Once I finish said task, I open my notebook and viola. It hasn't been like that lately. I can't quite put it into words, but it goes alongside a post I had written last summer about processing. There seem to be long periods of time where I just can't share enough. Life seems, well, novel. It's all churning and epiphanies and pondering. And then there are other times. When life seems just plain confusing. Nothing seems to connect, it's all swirling and whirling and there's no making sense of it. As you can guess, this has been life for me over the past few months...whirling and twirling and staying afloat.


Don't get me wrong. It's not as though I have been sitting on my tush, down and out, nor depressed. I have in fact been so busy with my work here and with keeping my health at a reasonable place, that I have to remind myself to come up for air every once in a while. Like today for example. I have been waking up with mild fevers in the morning the last few days and just feeling all-around pooey. I called my partners to say I was going to take a day to just stay home and rest. Wow. Look what happens when I do that...I actually write a blog post. I needed some hours to be with just me to put it together, to be able to communicate what I am going through, and as to why I haven't been sharing. 


I want to share. It's the greatest joy in life-right? I mean, you experience something, you learn something from that, and then you share.  Whether to warn the other about that type of experience, to tickle them with the laughter of your story, or to share a valuable insight about the nature of life, sharing our experiences connects us all in a profound way.


I hope that with this "breaking of the ice" I can re-open my conversation with you all and start to share again. I am not so sure that the clarity has returned, I am still in somewhat of a fog (more on my suspicions of the WHYS for another post)...but the intention is there. And isn't that what matters most? The reasons WHY we do what we do...


In respect to what I have just shared, I realized I was listening to  The Frames as  I wrote this post. And thus, the title of this post is from one song (and it's a full moon right now which isn't quite a star but DOES shine!), and another has inspired me with following refrain/reminder:


We have all the time in the world, to get it right, to get it right.
We have all the love in the world, to shed a light, to shed a light.


I suppose it doesn't really matter much that I have taken this time away from writing, from sharing. Just so long as I do shed some light. 


XOm